A Life's Walk with Cancer

BEING THANKFUL UNCEASINGLY

 "I’m thankful for all of you every time I pray, and it’s always a prayer full of joy. I’m glad because of the way you have been my partners..." Philippians 1:4-5a

It is an early morning after Thanksgiving, just half past six; no one is up other than me. I am on my second cup of coffee. And there is an empty dessert plate next to my laptop where a sweet pastry once was. I find myself in a peaceful, quiet respite - a much needed one following a month filled with performance reviews, team development planning and other administrative and managerial tasks at work, coupled with my community workshops for the unemployed. Yes, indeed, this second cup of coffee in hand tastes so much better right now.

One of the many things I love about Thanksgiving, besides the turkey...stuffing...mashed potatoes...cranberry sauce...and many other table trimmings, along with various scrumptious desserts, is we take a moment to express our gratitude for the many blessings we've received this year. It's a moment when we stop the busyness of our lives to take count of the bountiful grace given to us each day, through the love of our family, and just as equally through our genuine comradeship in our friends, colleagues, and other acquaintances. Moreover, we take the time to count our blessings, with the intention to recommit our energies to always give thanks and to be a more grateful individual. And as a cancer patient, and hopefully a long-term survivor, I find myself being thankful unceasingly, especially to those who have supported me with their encouraging words of hope and prayer throughout the last three years (see name cloud below).

Ralph Waldo Emerson once wrote:

"Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude."

With each inch of my cancer scars and the permanent deformation left behind from the tumors, coupled with the lingering side effects from the chemo/immunotherapy treatment; altogether, they serve as perennial reminders that I am, in fact...

still here;

breathing;

living; and

being loved!

A favored recipient of your never-ending heartfelt support, thoughts and prayers.

And what better way to show my sincere gratitude to those who have supported me throughout the past three years is to live a life with unceasing gratitude and happiness: evidenced by the way I love my wife, family, and friends...how I lead and care for those who report to me at work...how I give time back to those less fortunate in the community...and how I treat people who cross my path each day.

Yes, I cannot think of any better way to thank you for your heartfelt support, thoughts and prayers than by loving more, leading better, giving selflessly, and treating respectfully.

Thank you, unceasingly!

ajh

 

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Related blogs:

• MY WIFE THANKS GOD FOR MY CANCER
• HEARTFELT GRATITUDE TO MY SUPPORT COMMUNITY
• A CANCER VACATION, ONE WOULD HOPE!
• LIFE AFTER CANCER: Becoming a Stephen Minister
• TO FIND MEANING IN PAIN
• MANY BLESSINGS THROUGH MY RELATIONSHIPS

 

 

 

WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?

 

“Your last day of treatment is a day to celebrate! When treatment is over it can be difficult sometimes to get back to your normal pre-cancer life. The diagnosis of cancer dominates your life for so long, when treatment is over it takes a while to get back into your regular routine. I think I find my anniversary of being diagnosed a time of mixed emotions. You are thrilled to have made it another year of being cancer-free, yet you are also reminded of the anguish you went through.” – (Lynn Eib, When God & Cancer Meet)

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On a brisk Saturday morning, Teresa Harrington and I, along with her fellow coworkers from Virginia Heart, a cardiovascular care in Northern Virginia, participated in the "2016 Greater Washington Heart Walk," on the National Mall, Nov. 5, 2016. Despite being a bit tired from my recent cancer treatment, I had a great time with my wife, as we both gave some time for a worthy cause.

As a cancer fighter, one of the most difficult moments during treatment is not the surgery, visits to the infusion center, dealing with negative physical and emotional side effects, or even accepting the fact that various medications have become a permanent medicinal staple in your life. Instead, it is transitioning back to normal life – as one could expect to get back to.

Moving on from cancer treatment is liken to coming home after a 9-month deployment in the “sandbox” (as a Marine in the Persian Gulf). One moment I am full-throttled…pedal to the metal…doing everything I can to accomplish the mission. Then suddenly, the fight is over – cancer treatment is over.

No more weekly visits to see my medical team.

No more visits to the infusion center.

And no more unexpected visits to the emergency room.

Life is back to normal – as one could expect to get back to. 

Life after cancer treatment

While life after cancer treatment consists of regular cancer scans, learning new nutrition habits, making healthy lifestyle changes, and updating and managing estate and end-of-life records, I happily admit I'm looking forward to getting back to normal life again. However, even though I feel, and look (according to some folks) pretty darn good, I have to accept the fact that my type of cancer is a chronic illness, which means it never goes away. And though my type of cancer is a permanent bedfellow in my life, hopefully the recent treatment will prove to be an effective measure to control the growth and metastasis of my cancer cells. Time will only tell. 

So, where do I go from here?

Again, I happily admit that I'm looking forward to getting back to normal life again. Despite the fact the transition could possibly be challenging at times, such as dealing with some latent side effects from the chemo/immunotherapy treatment, I’m looking forward to the next exciting chapter of my life.

Also, I plan to write more journals on this site. During my cancer treatment, CaringBridge proved to be an amazing therapeutic outlet for me. It not only allowed me to feel connected to my family, friends, and loved ones, but it also gave me an outlet to let go of some personal concerns and anxieties dealing with cancer. What is more, this site definitely helped me organize my thoughts to see some amazing beneficial life lessons from having cancer.

From this point on, I hope my journals will serve as a beneficial "life nugget," providing some wisdom and coping strategies to those who are going through their own life trial.

ajh